I was not able to type out an entry so soon to follow up on the previous one because my family suffered another loss of a loved one recently.
My dearest and beloved grandma passed away on Friday morning (17th April) in RIPAS hospital. She collapsed and slipped into a coma the previous day and never regained consciousness. She was 97. Just 69 days apart from my grandpa, who passed away last February this year.
On Thursday, most of the families were at the hospital eagerly waiting for news on her condition. We met the doctor and were devastated when he said there was no hope left and just be prepared in the next 48 hours.
She was admitted in the SICU and only two visitors were allowed at a time. All of us took turn to go in. I was anxious for my turn and keep asking my relatives about her condition but none said anything. When my turn came, seeing her lying on the hospital bed with tubes everywhere broke my heart into pieces. I was expecting her to be sitting upright in her bed, smiling and welcoming us but that didn’t happen. It pains me so much to see her that way. I shed more tears the rest of the day and went back home feeling gloomy. I was really praying and hoping for a miracle to happen.
The following morning, I got up as usual to get ready to go to work but I was feeling in doubt and knew something was wrong. I wanted to take another emergency leave from work that day. My dad was also on his way to work when he received a phone call from my uncle informing us my grandma was in a critical condition. This saddened me more. I left home just after 7am and received another call from my dad… the news that I dread to hear… my grandma had passed away. I made a turn and called my niece first. It took a while for her to answer it and when she finally did, I couldn’t speak because there was a lump in my throat. Eventually I blurted out that our grandma had passed. We both cried on the phone and there was nothing left to say.
When I reached home I woke my mom and told her the news. My dad came home a few minutes later. We busied ourselves that morning getting ready to go to my grandparent’s house in Kg. Lamunin. Her body was brought back to the house that morning while my uncle and cousins arranged for the coffin and other funeral arrangement.
I did not want to believe that she was gone. I expected to see her walking around the house, spraying ridsect on some ants or sweeping the floor…her regular activites. It pains me so much that even up till now I’m still regretting for not visiting her for the past few weeks. My last visit was before I went to the Philippine and the UK for my holiday. Now I will only have memories of her to cherish: her sweet laughter and beautiful smile.
Dearly missed by loved ones
Love you always grandma.