Spoiled Weekend :(

Out of the 7 days in a week, I have to fall sick on a weekend! A weekend!!! I had plans for the weekend and it all came tumbling down on Saturday morning :(
I woke up early that morning but still felt tired so I slept back again and end up waking up with a fever and a cold! Took my temperature and it went from 37.5ºC to 38.5ºC in the afternoon and 39.2ºC in the evening. I didn't went to the hospital or clinic (crazy! I know!) I just took paracetamol for the fever and try to rest as much as I can.
I was supposed to attend a bbq/picnic in Serasa beach on Sunday but due to my condition I was unable to :( I must have exhausted myself last week. On Monday, we had the Langkah Sihat and we walked for 2.5km, that evening I played tennis with my cousins, the next day I played badminton with my colleagues, on Wednesday I had sore throat (but took some medication for it and I was ok) and then on Friday, I played badminton again. I felt well throughout the week but I guess it was too extreme for my body to handle all the activities and chose the weekend to shutdown.
I feel much better today except the cold is still there. I'm taking a break from all the activities this week and make sure I'm 100% recovered. I don't want my sickness to be mistaken for swine flu because I've all the symptoms (unfortunately that was the joke of the day among my friends during the bbq) :P

Disruptive sleeping pattern

My sleeping pattern is so screwed lately. It started since the death of my grandma. I don’t know why but probably her death affected me badly in some ways without me realising it.

I would normally sleep around 10pm+ or 11pm and woke up in the middle of the night around 4am+ just for a short while and then goes back to sleep. I know the exact time because I can see my clock glowing in the dark. Then I will wake up as usual around 6am+ for work except for Saturday where I usually wake up late.

Apart from the sleeping pattern, I also had some scary dreams. In one dream, I was longing for someone to come back but I knew that the person had already died. I refuse to accept it and eventually burst out crying and I cried for real! I woke up shortly after that.

And last night, I dreamed that I was about to be admitted to the hospital. I can only recall some part of the dream now. I think I was brought to the hospital in an ambulance and was sitting on a bed. I don’t feel sick or anything, but when my dad asks the nurse if I can go home she said I need to be admitted because they are some swelling on my mouth or face. And I woke up after that to get ready for work, apart from waking up earlier at 4am+.

I know something is bothering me that causing me to experience all these but I just don’t know what it is. It could be something physical, emotion or feeling but whatever it is... I just want my normal life/ sleeping pattern back. *sigh*

Maybe I just need a break!

When life depends on drugs

I have to depend on some medications for my health nowadays. Apparently, I've a perennial allergic rhinitis, eczema & high blood pressure. And it has to happen now at this age! I'm allergic to dust & pollen which cause me to have flu-like symptoms for days. And for my eczema, it comes & go depending on the food I eat & also the hot weather. My sensitive nose started when I was on 2 weeks spring holiday to the UK in 2007. I was not (as far as I know) allergic to anything at that time. I remember I was admiring some flowers & the sakura tree in St.James' park. Few days later, I was in Paris watching the news on TV which reports that the pollens from the sakura tree are making people sick (hayfever). I was having stuffy nose by then but was blaming it on the cold weather. I continue to have runny nose when I return back home & it got complicated. I had high fever, runny nose and a perforated eardrum. The pain radiates to my jaw & I couldn't open my mouth wide. I lost weight (which was a good thing) because I can't eat properly. It was the worst fever that I've ever experienced. Months later, I suffered partial deafness and had to be referred to a ENT specialist in JPMC. They did an endoscopy in my nose on local anesthetic and found a swelling at the back of my nose. I underwent a biopsy surgery few days later and thankfully, the outcome of the biopsy was negative for cancer. To cope with my sensitive nose, I've to depend on a nasal spray for the rest of my life.*sigh* so many health problem at this age! I hope & pray that I'll be able to overcome it. At the meantime, the medicines are my side dishes!

For my high BP...

For my eczema...

For my sensitive nose...


To get rid of phlegm, which I'm currently suffering from...

Adau Gayoh - May 1st

Today the Dusun community celebrate Adau Gayoh (translate 'big day'). Its something like thanksgiving for the harvesting season. Families usually get together, have big feast at their houses and kids enjoying themselves playing on the bouncers.

This year my family are not celebrating it because of the recent loss of our loved one and also it coincide with the 14th day since my grandma's passing. We will have some makan-makan tonight (as part of the tradition) and tomorrow we will visit her grave.

I'm sure my family feel the loss *sigh* I'm still missing them both badly. It'll never be same without the both of them now :( R.I.P.

Anyways, wishing all Dusun people : 'Selamat Adau Gayoh'